So, I’m waiting for my son. I’m at his school and have been for the past hour or so. Why have I been waiting this long? Why have I just been sitting here? Because I made a mistake. The mistake I made was to pick up my son forgetting the he had something right after school.

Reality is I could go home. I could have done something else that was productive. I suppose that’s what I’m doing right now. Each one of us have times in our day that don’t go the way we plan. Each one of us have times where we forget what we had planned out.

We then need to make a decision of what we will do as we wait. Will we sit and mope? Will we get angry? Will we use it that time productively? All of those answers rest within us. My answer was to dictate to write another blog post. Productivity is more than just getting something accomplished. Productivity is all about being who I am in a more complete sense. In this case productivity does not mean just putting one block on top of another. It means unearthing more of who I am as I build something upon the foundation on which I exist.

It’s a beautiful day, warm with high clouds, unusually warm, for this time of year. It’s probably about 20° warmer than usual. I’m trying to figure out what I do want to say right now. I know that digging deep into my soul is of importance especially relating to others. Teaching you how to do that.

However now what I’m sensing and feeling is physical exhaustion. This is related to the torn muscle that I had happened about a week ago. I re-injured it over the weekend from walking. Not walking in a slow pace but quickly as I was trying to catch up with my wife.

That began to cause a hematoma. That’s a pooling of blood outside of the the veins and arteries. It means that you begin to have the swelling in your foot in your leg due to the blood that’s not where it’s supposed to be. One of the side effects is tiredness, exhaustion because your body is trying to reabsorb the blood and that takes energy and you don’t have as much oxygen potential.

So that’s where I am right now as I’m thinking deeply I’m also limited. And that’s great. That’s part of life. It’s about how to relate who I am and what I’m going through because that’s happening. I see all the kids coming out of school with all their energy excited after their day. All I want to do right now, other than record this this blog, is to go to sleep. To tell you the truth, I just want take a nap. That’s part of healing.

When an injury happens and with that a pretty substantial one that healing doesn’t just happen. It takes time. This is the time that it’s taken. And probably for the next several days to perhaps another week or two this tiredness is going to follow me into my mid day and I’m going to need to take more time.

This reality reminds me of something. I’m reminded that our lives do not always go as we dictate them to go. Sometimes an accident takes place. Sometimes an injury takes place. And it’s all about carrying nothing that is unnecessary so that healing can take place quickly without worry and concern acceptance and grace.